Tuesday, October 16, 2007
One Year Since LID
Today marks twelve months since our dossier was officially logged-in to China. We have "officially" been waiting for our referral for Emma Claire for 1 whole year. I thought I might look back on what we did for the year, but it seems odd to list out what we did when in all probability Emma Claire is not born (and more likely, probably not even conceived).So, today I'm not going to think about the lengthening wait or develop and give in to the "woe is me" mentality. I am thinking about a woman, somewhere in China, who will give life to a child and the choice she will make that will bring us the greatest gift we could ever receive.
| posted by Shannon at 9:45 AM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
BIG Secret Buddy Thank-You
Since my internet was down, I was a little delayed in posting my thanks for this month's SB gift. All the items my SB sends are great!
| posted by Shannon at 11:00 AM
Back to the Regularly Scheduled Program...
I've spent some time away from blogging because I didn't have internet access. It seems that our ISP decided to block some ports preventing us from sending email messages out. It was an effort to get us to upgrade our account to a business account so they could a) charge us more and b)attach their ads all over our email messages forcing us to pay them to advertise for them. So, we opted to ditch the behemoth ISP provider for another ISP giant and wouldn't you know it, they do the exact same thing (even though they told us that they didn't do that). So, in an effort to "stick it to the man", we got stuck without internet for a week and a half and still have the same issues. Go figure. The whole issue could be resolved if I didn't use Outlook and used our ISP provided email account. But, alas, I love Outlook and I don't want to change my email address. So, I will have to deal.In the meantime, it seems like I picked a good time for a hiatus. Just when one thinks that it couldn't get more depressing on the China adoption front, it does. Before our internet break it was all cheer as we approached the review room (currently August 2006 is "in review"). But, now that referrals have arrived and it is but few days of referrals, all hopes have been dashed on the rocks. I know I say it just about every time referrals come out, but I guess I get my hopes up, it appears the 3+ years of waiting are true and we have 2 more years to go.
It is such a difficult thing not knowing WHEN. It makes life hard to plan. Daily I make the calculations as to when Emma Claire may arrive and how that may or may not affect vacation plans, older sister Chloe in school, repairs, renovations to our house, savings accounts, etc. Eventhough I know we should just "get on" with life, it certainly is hard to do so with the current state of adoption affairs. And,if calculating the wait doesn't seem like enough, you could also spend your time calculating the CCAA's next rule change, paperwork criteria, etc. It seems like we are in a constant state of adoption flux.
I am so thankful to have a calm, grounded husband who can "get on" with things (even though he is just as disappointed) and to have Chloe to keep me busy and distracted. Of course, nearly two years into this adoption process, Chloe is beginning to realize that a baby sister will be coming home. As Chloe's awareness is raised, more questions come.
Last Saturday, we went to a waiting families adoption meeting. I explained to Chloe that all of the people there were waiting for their babies from China just like we were. Well, somehow Chloe thought that we were leaving for China with all these people to get Emma Claire--right then. She was very disappointed when she found out that Emma Claire was not coming home that day and Chloe told me, "But Mommy, I have to give Emma Claire a kiss!". It was so sweet and heartbreaking at the same time.
Lately Chloe has been asking more and more about Emma Claire and some of her comments are priceless. At dinner the other day Chloe told me that when Emma Claire comes home Chloe will then have two daddies. I asked Chloe what she meant and she told me that she would have Chloe's Daddy and Emma Claire's Daddy, giving her two Daddies! I had to break it to Chloe that her Daddy was Emma Claire's Daddy. I wish I had a camera at the moment I told her that because the look on her face was one of those "What you talkin' 'bout Willis?!" looks. Then the other day, Chloe told me she got Emma Claire two presents. I asked her what she got Emma Claire and she told me she got Emma Claire her old crib and she would let her Mommy (me) tuck Emma Claire in at night. Another sweet moment. At least she realizes Emma Claire will be living with us.
| posted by Shannon at 6:56 AM
